It's Up to Me

 

 

I pushed send and began to pray.

God, I need Your favor. Please help them to like this idea.

From there, I began “pray continually” as  the Bible puts it.

 Lord, I need your help here. I think this is what You want me to do. I want to do what You want me to do. This is what You want me to do isn’t it? If they say “no”, then what am I going to do, Lord? I really don’t know another direction to go if they don’t say “yes”. I’d have to start from scratch. I just don’t know if I have it in me to start over. What if I have to start over?

Somewhere, in the middle of my praying, my thoughts had crossed over from praying continually to worrying continually. And once I let the switch from faith to fear set it, my thoughts took off like a spooked horse. It seemed there was no getting them back.

Worry.

It causes me to not seek God first, but instead to constantly focus on and planning for tomorrow. Thinking about, dwelling on the what if’s instead of living in the here and now. Not enjoying Jesus, His love and His presence in my day.

Jesus tells us in Matthew 6:33 – 34 “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (NIV) 

He gives us His direction: seek first My kingdom. Seek meaning: to go in search or quest of. I seem to want to seek worry. He tells me to seek to worship. To not worry about tomorrow, but worship the One who holds tomorrow. Then, the rest of the verse can come together, “all these things will be given to you as well.” 

All these things? What are all these things Jesus is referring to?

In the verses preceding, He is speaking on the typical things we worry about; our needs. He reassures us: when we are intentional to set our heart on His heart He takes care of what is close to our heart! So at this point – it’s up to me.

I’d love to wrap this post up with a pretty, pink bow saying, “When I stopped worrying, He answered my prayer.” But I can’t say that … yet. Today, I’ll still working with the Holy Spirit to seek Him, not what He can do. I think that, seeking His presence in my day, is really my greatest need of all.

Lord, help me not worry about tomorrow, but worship, You, the One who holds tomorrow. You’ve got what concerns me, because You’ve got me right in Your hand.

 

Lynn