“You just can’t give your 100% to two things at once.”
I knew my counselor was right. As a young woman, I had made a commitment to God that I wouldn’t date that year in school. I hadn’t been loving Him with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind and all my strength; I needed to change.
“The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel:The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ Mark 12: 29 – 30 (NIV)
That commitment was all well and good, until the guy I had been crushing on for seven years contacted me.
Wait God? Why would you bring me the “desires of my heart” if you didn’t want me to be with the “desire of my heart”?
“Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.” John 14:21 (NIV)
Would I keep my commit to the Father or go after my “friend”? He called again; said he was flying 1,000 to see me.
Oh God?! What should I do?
“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love.” John 15: 9 -10 (NIV)
And here is where I had to decide. Who would I love more? Whose love would come first? Would I just say Jesus was my everything or would He be my everything?
“Little children, let us not love in word or talk but in deed and in truth.” 1 John 3:18
So, I made the hardest decision I have made yet. I told him “no”. Please don’t come. I can’t. I cried. I grieved. and then I thanked God.
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8
In showing His love toward us, God put us first. Put us before Himself. In showing my love back to Him, I need to do the same. Put Him above myself and above others in my life.
After a season of obeying Him and truly learning no man can fill the love gap in my heart – not my dad, not a boyfriend, not even an amazing husband one day, He did give me the desire of my heart. And I did marry my crush. But Jesus did and still does have my heart.
Today, I’m giving away a bundle pack of my books, “His Revolutionary Love” and “Devotions for a Revolutionary Year” for you to share with a young woman in your life who needs to know only Jesus can fill the love gap in her heart. To be entered to win, share, in the comments below, the love that struggles to share first place in your heart. If you’re in a hurry, just say, “I’m in!” I’ll announce the winner on my Thursday Wisdom Tip!
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