Yesterday,I learned a new thing about myself. I have always thought of myself as fearless. Worry is not one of my many struggles, so I assumed that I didn’t struggle with fear either.
Yet, I came to the realization that when I am frustrated or angry, what I really am experiencing is fear. Fear that the weekend is going too fast and I am not having enough time with my family. Fear that I won’t get the house clean before the evening comes and I will feel “behind” the next day. Fear that my children won’t learn how to pick up after themselves and one day have a spouse who can’t stand me because their mates are messy! The fear I feel just looks different than others. It comes out in the way of irritability, yelling or silence.
Psalm 34:4 brings me comfort. “I sought the Lord and He heard me and delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 46:1 – 2 can bring peace as I read that He is a very present help in time of trouble. To not fear is a choice for me. I need to choose to not fear my children growing up in a very troubled world. I need to choose to not fear that the dreams and desires I have in love will not come to past. I must choose faith.
How does fear appear in your life? Do you too experience anger and frustration? Does your fear come out through worry? Whatever way you show fear, ask the Lord to take it from you today and replace it with HIS faith – confidence that the God of the universe can take care of anything that troubles me today.