In The Dark Places

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 NIV

A volcano spewing out pent up lava, my heart threw up sorrow. The sobbing just wouldn’t stop. Each time I tried to gain control, another wave of reality hit me, sending me to a fetal position on my office floor.

For months I had prayed and quoted scripture; putting my trust in the Lord. But this day there was a breach in the dam and I just couldn’t hold back the force of tears. I was completely dismayed; my courage completely gone.

“How did we get to this place, God? How?” My heart really didn’t want the answer; it wouldn’t change a thing. He knew what I truly needed, a dose of hope where only dejection laid.

The reality of the pain in our lives threatens some days to take us down; pulling us to a place of deep sorry where we feel alone. That place is strange. Pouring out pain can be good…and it can be bad.

Expression of hurt can be a¬†catharsis, emptying the pent up stress, creating relief. Other times, it’s an¬†abscessed tooth. Running our tongue over and over it just to feel the pain, aggravating our aching heart more. We know what we need; we need to run to Jesus who wants to hold us up.

To be honest, when I’m hurting so, sometimes I don’t want to go to Jesus. What I want to do is crawl in bed and pull the covers up over my head. Yet, if I will take that first step, and then the next, I can walk away from being dismayed and toward the strength Jesus offers. My thoughts and words become my weapons as I fight to regain hope that comes when I am in his presence.

“So do not fear, for I am with you…I will strengthen you and help you…I will uphold you.” (Isaiah 41:10 NIV) His words offer hope.

Jesus truly is the only one who can bring real hope in the dark places of our lives. Even if we can run to a husband, friend or parent, they can’t fix what causes us deep sorrow. When no one else can comfort, he can.

Let’s not make Jesus our last option; make him our first.

Lynn

5 Comments

  1. I am struggling already with my 11year old. She seems angry at me a lot and pushes back on discipline and correction. I worry because she guilts me into thinking I am the “Bad Mom”, and suggests that I expect too much from her. Her strong will and quick responses leave me feeling like throwing up my hands at times.

    1. Nancy, this generation has a very low “pain” tolerance. When you encourage her to do her best in school, help with chores in the house, etc. you are a good mom! One book that is really helping me is “Have a New Teenager by Friday”. I highly recommend it!

  2. Hi Lynn! Thanks so much for this devotion today & the reminder to make God our first option.
    My oldest son has been making some poor choices lately & today especially my heart is very heavy.
    Reading your devotion today has encouraged me & I am reminded that God will work everything out for His good!

    Blessings,
    Janet W.

    1. Janet….so been there with mine too. It is a total trust that the truth we have poured in will one day produce fruit!

  3. Thank you, Lynn, for the reminder…something happened last week that had me in a total panic. I could not calm down enough to figure out WHAT to do. After way too many minutes I opened my Bible…the bad feelings didn’t go away right away but I had the reassurance that I was not alone, that I had Someone to reassure me, encourage me, and guide me.

    Next time I pray I will go to Him FIRST.

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