“How can I, your servant, talk with you, my lord? My strength is gone and I can hardly breathe.”
Daniel 10:17 (NIV)
Have you ever stepped outside of your comfort zone to do something for God and then wondered, “What am I doing? Why did I agree to do this?” Maybe you signed up to lead a Bible study, attend a woman’s conference or begin a new prayer group? At the time it seemed like a great idea, but now that you are in it, you are sure it was not! You are scared, nervous and wish you could turn back?
I sure have! Recently, I said “yes” to God. “Yes” to being used by Him in a way that was beyond my comfort level. Saying “yes” had taken me thousands of miles away from home, away from my husband and kids and the ease of my home. Now, as I stood in the airport, the tears began to puddle. What was I thinking? I feel so alone. Then in my spirit I felt His Spirit, “You said yes to me, Lynn. You said yes to me.” Oh, yeah. That is why I was there.
As I stood waiting in a long line, my cell phone indicated that I had a voicemail. A call must have come through while I was on the airplane. I listened to the message. It was from a dear friend saying she didn’t know what I was doing, but she was praying for me. The tears that were pooling no longer could be held back. They trickled down my face as I thanked the Lord for hearing me; for seeing me. As the Bible tells us, “He sees our frame. He knows that we are dust” (Psalm 103:14). He knew how I felt and He wasn’t angry with me. He wanted to comfort me.
Sometimes when we are stepping out for God, making choices to go outside of our own comfort zone to be used by Him, it is not easy. In fact it is very hard. Like Daniel in Daniel 10:17, we may feel like our strength is gone and we can hardly breathe, but just because we have these feelings of discomfort, it does not mean that the Lord did not intend for us to do the thing we are doing.
Think of the first time you rode a bike? You didn’t know how to do; you had to learn. How about learning a new skill on the computer or a new position at a job? Many things in life can be uncomfortable as you are getting started, but do not equate those feelings of discomfort with the lie that you are not to do this new thing that the Lord is working out in your life. New things can begin with discomfort, but end in joy!
That weekend that started with tears for me, ended with seeing the Lord work in and through me in a way that I had never experienced before. Be brave, my friend. Say “yes” to God; even with the uncomfortable thing, and see what new joy He will bring your way!