Is God good? – Guest Post with Trisha Knaul

“I can’t deny that God exists. I’ve seen and experienced too much to deny He’s there. I just don’t
know if He’s good. I just don’t know if it’s worth it to follow Him anymore.”

My friend was stunned by my admission.


Those words revealed something I had not realized before.

1) I knew God existed, 2) I had valuable experience with Him, 3) I was questioning
God’s goodness and 4) I was hurting so much that I didn’t know if it was worth the pain and
the effort to keep following Him.

In addition to recognizing and admitting where my struggle was, that conversation brought 3 prayer warriors
alongside me. Those prayer warriors (and my understanding of their value) was one of the best
things to come out of that time.

In ancient times, Roman soldiers used to carry 2 types of shields, a small shield used in hand-to-hand combat and
a large one used for full-body protection. That larger shield allowed a soldier to crouch behind it
to avoid enemy arrows. When a group of soldiers stood in a circle behind their shields, they
formed a virtually impenetrable barrier for themselves and their fellow soldiers. They quite
literally had each other’s backs.

I had been fighting my battle alone with my tiny little shield, leaving my back exposed to
enemy fire. I needed my fellow warriors to protect my back from enemy arrows (and they
needed me for the same reason). When I finally had several people who understood how intense
my battle was, I had fellow warriors planting their large prayer shields next to mine to protect my

While my fellow warriors protected my back, I wrestled with those questions that were haunting
me and sought answers in God’s Word. When I confessed my struggles to my friend, I finally recognized the big issues. Now that I knew what the issues were, I could seek answers.

Satan makes us question God’s Word to keep us from salvation or to render us useless to God.  I
refused to let Satan win. But to regain strength and to become an effective servant warrior again,
I had to confront those questions.

It took time, but gradually my faith strengthened. I realized that God was calling me to a restored relationship and to a renewed and effective life of service in His Kingdom, all in the power He provides.

My story is one of battle, injury, burnout, depression, running, prayer, restoration, and service. Regardless of your personal struggle, you also need fellow warriors to cover your back with prayer, God’s Word to confront Satan’s lies, and salvation and restoration so you can have a future hope and so you can be an effective servant warrior in God’s Kingdom.

During this dark time in my life, God reintroduced me to the Old Testament prophet, Elijah. By spending time with Elijah, I learned many things about myself and my God. When I finally rose above my circumstances, I had a burning desire to share the lessons I had learned.

If you find yourself in a very dark time of your spiritual journey—asking questions, looking for elusive answers, thinking no one understands—let me introduce you to Elijah.

Elijah: Lessons on God and Godly Living from One Flawed Human to Another

James tells us that Elijah was human just like us. This flawed human being walked into the throne room of a king to confront sin then hid for three and a half years while the people suffered the serious consequences of idolatry and unrepentance. Elijah lived the ultimate mountaintop experience only to run away in fear when he came down from that mountain. Yet, God still used him.

In Elijah: Lessons on God and Godly Living from One Flawed Human to Another, you will take a 6-week, in-depth look at the life of Elijah, studying him and the kings around him. Here, you will identify your own idols and explore the impact your life has on those around you. When God hides Elijah, you will learn valuable lessons about God’s provision. As you watch Elijah struggle through the wilderness, you will discover some pitfalls of a life committed to God and explore ways of avoiding them. Elijah experienced passion, provision, power, burnout, and restoration. Join me as we discover what a human like us is capable of doing when they are wholly committed to God.

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    1. Lynn Cowell says:

      I’m so glad to share this new resource, Trisha!

  1. What courage it took, Trisha, for you to admit your struggles to your friend! And what a great result you experienced in the three prayer warriors who came alongside you, lifted you up, and helped you see your need for a restored relationship with God.

    The Bible provides us with a view of Jesus’ emotional struggles in Gethsemane shortly before His crucifixion. He told His disciples, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death” (Matthew 26:38, Mark 14:34). He could have hidden all this from them; they were asleep most of the time that He was wrestling with His future. Maybe He revealed it because He wanted us to know that the Son of God could experience deep emotional pain and still be without sin. And yet we as evangelicals often convey the message that we mustn’t let our struggles show. (Adapted from my blog at

    I think this is changing as people like you share both the doubts and the value of confiding in others. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable.

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